With some time off to clear my head, I’ve lost the momentum that carried me through May.  Just as well, since now I need to switch mindsets from coding to talking.   Of the last six months, I spent the first half on business development (talking, designing, writing, sales) and the next half coding Tidepool. My hope was to split my daily time between selling and coding, but that didn’t happen.  It’s tough to be two different people at the same time.

I need to raise $40,000 to finish.  We’re at least a month away from opening things up to Kickstarter and the rest, so this means person-to-person sales, which feels daunting to me right now.  In my head, I have complete confidence in the plan and my ability to sell it.  In my heart, I’m emotionally drained and afraid of rejection.  Somehow I need to will myself back to money mode.

Years ago, when first starting my work in Haiti, I confided to Susie Krabacher of Mercy & Sharing how hard it was for me to ask people for money.  Her response is something I remember often:  “Tim, you’re not asking for you, you’re asking for the kids.  You’re making it possible for people to help children.  That’s a gift.”

If we’re able to finish Tidepool, if we’re allowed to endow it with just a fraction of our recent educational experiences, if we can market it successfully, then children around the world will benefit.

I need to remember the way children looked in Haiti and Nicaragua while they worked with XOs and Etoys: confident, engaged, hopeful.  I need to imagine these hundreds increasing a thousandfold.  I need to see a million proud parents watching as their children learn more deeply, as they learn to think.

I am simply the vehicle.  Money given to me is opportunity given to children.

I believe this.

So quit my bellyaching and pick up the phone!

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